Some of the truest stuff I've read. I'm glad to have a family but my life is pure alienation, I can never relate to these people. Is that good or bad ?
I appreciate these glimses into AA the man. Cigar, stetson and poncho, staring into the sunset... as the missus calls him back in from the garden for dinner.
I'm a deracinated urban Gen-X Anglo English (never lived anywhere else) but in almost 5 decades never saw anything civilised that touched me as ancestral. In the 70s growing up there was a already a fakeness to Englishness, you didn't 'know' it was all bullshit but it just could not touch you in the same way, say, running about in the woods could. The English are strangers to modern England; we are all immigrants to this demented land, clinging to echoes out of time in the same way AA here describes 2nd Gen immigrants. Work to be done.
Identity exists as much in eye of the beholder, as much as self perception. Your wife's opinion, and the opinion of those people who thought your name was Italian, counts for about as much as your own.
Po, have you ever read Otto Winnenger's Sex and Character? If not, it is pointed out how, it is very characteristic of a feminine interpretation of the world to contend that x is 'in the eye of the beholder'. The notion of a matter of fact, is rather masculine, well the notion of a matter of perception is feminine. Thus a point to identity being contingent, would for a masculine personality like AA, be to skip the point of the question entirely. For in asking a question of identity, the masculine personality is looking for a fact that is independed of perception and is thus a fact of that matter that such. Thus the opinions of people, say noting about the fact of the matter. They do say something about the practical existence of who AA is in relation to these people, but not about what AA is as a fact. Facts as it was put don't care about perception, they are matters of being and necessity. Otto goes so far as to say that. "Even when a woman speaks the truth, she must objectively lie". The point he is getting at, difficult to grasp maybe, is that perceptions even if they are alined with the fact, do not know the fact as the fact. Thus the only way to come to know what I am, is through myself and nothing besides.
As we know now this idea of race is just a modern subversive creation to divide and control the masses, and that ethnicity has always been the way most people looked at themselves in history. Even before I became aware of its origins I rejected the notion of race intuitively. On the 2010 census in the US I put my race down as American. Then in 2020 I put down Germanic. I think I'll go with Saxon for the 2030 census.
Thank you for writing this, AA. I am half Dutch and half Tunisian, and I consider myself half White when you look at biology alone. However, I feel similar to you, and it has been difficult to become aware of this. The fragmentation in my family on both sides has further complicated the matter.
Due to my personal experience, I am very hesitant to agree with this idea of mixing. But to be honest, I only recently dared to admit this to myself. It's refreshing to simply acknowledge this.
I discovered you a little than a month ago, got two of your courses, and am a silent watcher of your streams. I like your style, and you have opened a doorway for me that is crucial!
If you knew from where I am watching and what other part of my story that would reveal, you would raise your eyebrows. But it's actually really simple and shows how dark it can get when one travels the road of life alone.
Look back at the history of Tunisia- Egypt, Greece, Phoenecia, Romans, Berbers, Goths, Normans, French- it's hard to know really one's ethnic backround in any such a place.
I cannot tell you how much I look forward to UO each week, we live in a world of lies. When you find someone like you that tells truths and is trying to find it in the world (you are looking for the light) . Anyone cares about race , they care that you are true. I know what race you are, human.
A very good read. I do wonder if people who are mixed race are more likely to see just how atomized and devoid of serious spiritual meaning the west is. This is just anecdotal, but I myself am mixed race. Additionally, when I've spoken to my close friends about the sort of things you discussed in your article, only 3 of them seem to really understand what I'm getting at, 2 of whom are also mixed.
In my predominately "white" area that I live in that is about a half hour's drive to a large metropolitan US midwestern area, just about every other time I go to the grocery store now there is a grandmother there shopping for groceries with what is I presume her mixed race grandchild.
Very good article. Especially the point on the universality of alienation in the ashes. I do think the fact he views his constituent parts as equally "valid," as opposed to each negating the other, to be interesting. Perhaps it's a gen x thing, or a non-mulatto thing. Upon a re-read, perhaps that negating is accounted for as an external, "ashes born," incursion rather than a reality of ones own dual heritage.
These are complicated thoughts and feelings, well suited to our complicated times. I've often thought of the relatively modern uptick in mixed-raced people as an anomaly that will be smoothed out in time, after a long civilizational winter. Even I am something like 1/16 Native American (not uncommon at all in the American south), but you couldn't tell me apart from any random sample of a white anglo. In a great many years, well beyond our lifetimes and when multiculturalism is truly dead, new races and civilizations will form as admixtures of existing ones, and an authentic spirit will return to their bones.
I have been giving thought to these questions recently. If nationality and clan are based on something more fundamental then language and custom, a common haplogroup or gene, or religion. What is the correct orientation to evaluate ideas - through the prospective of the individual, family, state, or race? I am still working it out, but one think I feel intuitively is that what we are but did not choose to be is that which defines us. How we react to what is thrust upon us.
I find that the attempt to reduce identity to the biological-phenotypical sense of race is crude and simplistic, and at worst is an indication of a culture in crisis as it depends on violence and coercion whether from the top-down like the Nazis or the KKK from the bottom-up. But then race is a necessary, although not sufficient to the construction of identity of an ethnos—maybe not in the individual level, but that’s just something that the individual and society negotiates over time. Anyhow identity that emerges more or less organically based on commonalities than just “civic values” or cynical technocratic policies such as mass migration are to be preferred.
Also you will not believe this AA, but your mixed-race status was literally revealed to me in a dream before I read this article lol
The nuggets of thoughtful insight here was sadly where AA #content peaked, the exponential decline post-Twitter brainrot into Court Jester LOLcow which began after this was sad to see.
"I maintain my dream of being a strange and antisocial loner in a completely cohesive village. I believe we disagreeable loners have our place but only in a society that has healthy and natural established norms." This passage goes hard, couldn't agree more.
Some of the truest stuff I've read. I'm glad to have a family but my life is pure alienation, I can never relate to these people. Is that good or bad ?
You need to make a full effort to enjoy your time with these people. Even if the chances of succeeding is low.
Neither good nor bad. It's just how it is. Amor fati.
You mean Persians?
I appreciate these glimses into AA the man. Cigar, stetson and poncho, staring into the sunset... as the missus calls him back in from the garden for dinner.
"Whiter than you Muhammad!" -Mrs. AA's mealtime small talk
I'm a deracinated urban Gen-X Anglo English (never lived anywhere else) but in almost 5 decades never saw anything civilised that touched me as ancestral. In the 70s growing up there was a already a fakeness to Englishness, you didn't 'know' it was all bullshit but it just could not touch you in the same way, say, running about in the woods could. The English are strangers to modern England; we are all immigrants to this demented land, clinging to echoes out of time in the same way AA here describes 2nd Gen immigrants. Work to be done.
Identity exists as much in eye of the beholder, as much as self perception. Your wife's opinion, and the opinion of those people who thought your name was Italian, counts for about as much as your own.
Po, have you ever read Otto Winnenger's Sex and Character? If not, it is pointed out how, it is very characteristic of a feminine interpretation of the world to contend that x is 'in the eye of the beholder'. The notion of a matter of fact, is rather masculine, well the notion of a matter of perception is feminine. Thus a point to identity being contingent, would for a masculine personality like AA, be to skip the point of the question entirely. For in asking a question of identity, the masculine personality is looking for a fact that is independed of perception and is thus a fact of that matter that such. Thus the opinions of people, say noting about the fact of the matter. They do say something about the practical existence of who AA is in relation to these people, but not about what AA is as a fact. Facts as it was put don't care about perception, they are matters of being and necessity. Otto goes so far as to say that. "Even when a woman speaks the truth, she must objectively lie". The point he is getting at, difficult to grasp maybe, is that perceptions even if they are alined with the fact, do not know the fact as the fact. Thus the only way to come to know what I am, is through myself and nothing besides.
As we know now this idea of race is just a modern subversive creation to divide and control the masses, and that ethnicity has always been the way most people looked at themselves in history. Even before I became aware of its origins I rejected the notion of race intuitively. On the 2010 census in the US I put my race down as American. Then in 2020 I put down Germanic. I think I'll go with Saxon for the 2030 census.
Thank you for writing this, AA. I am half Dutch and half Tunisian, and I consider myself half White when you look at biology alone. However, I feel similar to you, and it has been difficult to become aware of this. The fragmentation in my family on both sides has further complicated the matter.
Due to my personal experience, I am very hesitant to agree with this idea of mixing. But to be honest, I only recently dared to admit this to myself. It's refreshing to simply acknowledge this.
I discovered you a little than a month ago, got two of your courses, and am a silent watcher of your streams. I like your style, and you have opened a doorway for me that is crucial!
If you knew from where I am watching and what other part of my story that would reveal, you would raise your eyebrows. But it's actually really simple and shows how dark it can get when one travels the road of life alone.
Look back at the history of Tunisia- Egypt, Greece, Phoenecia, Romans, Berbers, Goths, Normans, French- it's hard to know really one's ethnic backround in any such a place.
Q: Are you White?
A: No.
So what?
Move on, and continue to contribute to the struggle of our lifetime - defeating the Great Satan and its abominable earthly empire.
I cannot tell you how much I look forward to UO each week, we live in a world of lies. When you find someone like you that tells truths and is trying to find it in the world (you are looking for the light) . Anyone cares about race , they care that you are true. I know what race you are, human.
A very good read. I do wonder if people who are mixed race are more likely to see just how atomized and devoid of serious spiritual meaning the west is. This is just anecdotal, but I myself am mixed race. Additionally, when I've spoken to my close friends about the sort of things you discussed in your article, only 3 of them seem to really understand what I'm getting at, 2 of whom are also mixed.
In my predominately "white" area that I live in that is about a half hour's drive to a large metropolitan US midwestern area, just about every other time I go to the grocery store now there is a grandmother there shopping for groceries with what is I presume her mixed race grandchild.
Very good article. Especially the point on the universality of alienation in the ashes. I do think the fact he views his constituent parts as equally "valid," as opposed to each negating the other, to be interesting. Perhaps it's a gen x thing, or a non-mulatto thing. Upon a re-read, perhaps that negating is accounted for as an external, "ashes born," incursion rather than a reality of ones own dual heritage.
These are complicated thoughts and feelings, well suited to our complicated times. I've often thought of the relatively modern uptick in mixed-raced people as an anomaly that will be smoothed out in time, after a long civilizational winter. Even I am something like 1/16 Native American (not uncommon at all in the American south), but you couldn't tell me apart from any random sample of a white anglo. In a great many years, well beyond our lifetimes and when multiculturalism is truly dead, new races and civilizations will form as admixtures of existing ones, and an authentic spirit will return to their bones.
I have been giving thought to these questions recently. If nationality and clan are based on something more fundamental then language and custom, a common haplogroup or gene, or religion. What is the correct orientation to evaluate ideas - through the prospective of the individual, family, state, or race? I am still working it out, but one think I feel intuitively is that what we are but did not choose to be is that which defines us. How we react to what is thrust upon us.
Well put.
I find that the attempt to reduce identity to the biological-phenotypical sense of race is crude and simplistic, and at worst is an indication of a culture in crisis as it depends on violence and coercion whether from the top-down like the Nazis or the KKK from the bottom-up. But then race is a necessary, although not sufficient to the construction of identity of an ethnos—maybe not in the individual level, but that’s just something that the individual and society negotiates over time. Anyhow identity that emerges more or less organically based on commonalities than just “civic values” or cynical technocratic policies such as mass migration are to be preferred.
Also you will not believe this AA, but your mixed-race status was literally revealed to me in a dream before I read this article lol
The nuggets of thoughtful insight here was sadly where AA #content peaked, the exponential decline post-Twitter brainrot into Court Jester LOLcow which began after this was sad to see.
"I maintain my dream of being a strange and antisocial loner in a completely cohesive village. I believe we disagreeable loners have our place but only in a society that has healthy and natural established norms." This passage goes hard, couldn't agree more.
Incisive piece. (hopefully my comment will stick)